Lately everything just feels so busy.
I’m in the middle of a course that will
hopefully see me start my own business.
I’m excited about it, but it is so stressful. It feels I have so many things to organise and it all replies on something else so I am just in a stalemate at the moment. It makes me uneasy being unable to go gung-ho at something. That is the kind of person I am.
I don’t like not having the funds right now to throw everything into it. And while I realise this is a good thing, I shouldn’t throw everything into it, I should be cautious and planning and all those other reasonable things you do when starting a business, it still feels a little like I’m not getting my own way. Which I hate.
I find myself staring at facebook for hours because I don’t know where to start.
And then I feel like I have been too busy to blog, to anything.
I have so many ideas going around in my head that I don’t know how to put word to paper.
My brain feels restless.
Even now, I’m switching between this, looking at things to buy to fit out my shop as cheaply as possible, looking up wreckers, making appointments…
I should be at my course today but I was at the hospital with Lola last night and there is just so much to do that I felt I needed to say No! And just have a day to get it all done.
Which worries me – because owning/running my own business, there will be no day I can just say no.