So I’m feeling a little bitter.
My business, that I’ve poured everything into for the last 6 months
Isn’t going to happen.
It’s not the right climate.
It’s not the right time economically in my town.
People don’t want a store so much as somewhere they can hang out and play for free.
And it pisses me off.
Now, I have stock coming out of my earholes and I have to get rid of it.
I have genuine people who were looking forward to it as a store, that I feel I am letting down.
I feel like I’m letting tattoodaddy down.
I feel like now I’ve placed a massive burden on his shoulders because this hasn’t worked out.
Which I know is stupid because he’s upset for me.
He’s cranky for me.
It is affecting my motivation to reach my goals.
It is affecting my parenting.
It is affecting my life in general.
And I don’t fucking like it.
It is putting me in a “down” mood.
Because I failed at this, what next?
What if I don’t reach those goals?
What if I let others down?
What if I let myself down?
And yeah sure, “Dreams don’t work if you don’t.”
But I did.
So now what.