I know I promised you a challenge with support and recipes and honesty.
I can support you if you want to comment or email me with something you’re struggling with.
Recipes at the moment are not on the top of my to-do list, if I am completely honest with you.
I am all different kinds of exhausted right now.
Mentally, physically, emotionally, financially.
I’m scared about what a Coalition government means for my family. My sister thoughtlessly (and I do believe that – she would never ever say it with the intention of hurting someone, she just doesn’t think sometimes) said that “The only people who are upset that Liberal got in are the people without a job.”
And she is right. I don’t have a job that can support us. Right now, Tattoodaddy does not have a job either. It is fucking hard in Coffs Harbour to find a decent job. there is virtually no opportunities that will work around mothers with young children and there is little in the way of everything else.
We discussed this and it was put to us that we “should just move”. Which might work if we had any money to move with, or a place to go where we would be guaranteed a position.
I am physically exhausted because in spite of my job situation I worked 40 hours in four days last week. A total of 46 for the fortnight. Because everyone else was away. My shifts this week are back down to 8 hours.
I fought off more than one panic attack in the work toilet because I was tired. I missed my children. No one ensured I knew what I was doing after not working there for 2 years, I was just expected to remember everything and get right back into it.
I am emotionally exhausted after receiving an assessment from an OT that says yes, it does look like Dexter has sensory issues in almost all sections. We have been given what I am told is a “sensory diet” to try and help manage him and help him deal with it.
Manage him isn’t the right words, but it’s the best I can do – maybe help him manage his world around him would be more appropriate I think.
We have an OT appointment today so that should be interesting. I’m told she is really good.
I have not been consistently going to the gym because I am just so tired all I want to do is crash. It makes me sad because I still have goals but at the same time a lot of the time I just can’t work up the effort to go. Then I’ll have to go. And smile. And talk to people. I just don’t feel like doing any of it.